Right now I am madder than a box of snakes with a fire underneath them. A course of events was set in motion a few years ago and it started by someone telling a blatant lie. This snowballed, as these things do, and it increased in girth with poor decisions, lack of responsibility and inadequate care.
Unaware of what had gone on before I ended up with the snowball. This week I had a very tough call to make and the level of distress this caused meant my eyes were swollen shut from weeping. There is only one other time in my life that I have wept that hard.
The point of this post is not to set off a train of worry about me, as I am like the raindrop in the picture…I am whole.
My heart remains healthy as I choose not to let the anger lodge there and to leave my heart open to life. If our hearts become hardened, bitter, or worse still closed off, then life will present us with the events that confirm our view.
I have calmly explained the situation to those concerned and have left them to draw their own conclusions.
My lesson is to ask more questions in future and then take time to consider and ponder on all the information gathered. Any gaps will no doubt ring alarm bells as sometimes it’s the things that aren’t said that say the most!!
In the meantime…..
Prayer of Saint Francis of Assisi
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.