Sparks in the gloom…

Life has flowed with a few challenges lately and I've been left gasping for air at times.

I lay there in the middle of one sleepless night and simply did not know what to do to soothe myself. My wisdom said 'Stay still and do nothing.' Then I sensed a lovely dog in spirit on the bed beside me and felt my Gran and her Mum, my Great Gran, close by my side. A feeling of calm settled in and I could let the feelings I had be, just as they were. Breathing in the experiences, breathing out the feelings.

I needed unconditional love, so the next day I asked my heart family if I could borrow their lovely boy, Boris, the German Shepherd. 'Absolutely' was their swift reply and he's coming to stay with me for a week after Easter. ❤

That sparked another idea and I ordered insurance, new wellies and some marketing postcards. Say 'Hello' to Jane's Dog Walking Service. My old flowery wellies have done two years sterling work, so I took my new ones out at lunchtime today and christened them in the sea. I also found some more sea glass and treasure to add to my collection.

My heritage is rich with hand crafts, so it is no surprise that I turn to that for comfort again and again. My lovely buddy Pam and I set off on Friday to a local art gallery, as they were running a Creative Think Tank, with taster sessions on all sorts of crafts being showcased. I had it in my head that I would finally get to have a go at wood carving, which has been a long held dream, and willow basket weaving. You just know this didn’t go to plan don’t you? We had a great time and saw all sorts of wonderful things, while discovering that the basket weaving and wood carving courses were out of our financial reach right now. Then the unexpected happened. I had made a connection with one of the receptionists when we arrived and he was looking after everyone by keeping the whole event flowing. Pam was absorbed trying out a Viking weaving loom and having a great time. I glanced up and Mark came over and said ‘There’s more going on in other rooms Jane, can I show you?’ So off we went and I found myself at a table where a lovely lady was demonstrating rug making with re-cycled materials. I took a seat and Alison let me have a go weaving strips of old t-shirts into hessian and I was right there, in the moment. She showed me what materials to try and what to back the rugs with. The edging stitch that holds it all together is new to me, but my Granny said in my head ‘I can show you that Jane’. I’d discovered a new joy. As I sat at home later, knitting, my creative sparks started to fly. I have been a painter since I can remember when and for the last few years it has stopped ‘talking’ to me. With the rug making I can chalk and ink my design on the hessian and by hooking in re-cycled materials, there is more leeway. It doesn’t have to be precise and as the freedom of this sunk in, well I am sure my heart singing could be heard far and wide.

It’s been dark and raining like ‘billy-ho’ today and then just as I finished my new wellie walk, the sky brightened and the clouds looked as if they had been brushed on the blue.

45 thoughts on “Sparks in the gloom…

  1. Hello my beautiful friend, I’m back. And so glad I saw this post. I know we all get lost in the dark sometimes but you are such a beautiful person with so many talents and you always seems to find the light even in the dark. And I love your flowery Wellies too! Big hugs from your returned unicorn buddy. ❤ xoxo

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    1. My unicorn buddy, I am so glad you had a wonderful vacation. In a purely selfish way, it’s great to have you back. ❤ Thank you for your thoughtful words and thoughts. Here's to Spring and new buds coming forth. Wrapping you in ❤ xXx

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  2. Argh! It’s those wellies again! What can I say – the Creative Think Tank sounds marvellous, and I’m glad you enjoyed such an optimistic time there. BTW, basket weaving isn’t all it’s put up to be; I still remember developing callouses on my hands from my only professional sally into that craft. They took years to disappear! Boris sounds great, avoiding the issue of tails. We had a German Shepherd called Greta and when she was pleased, nothing at her hip level was safe. I read ‘The Pit and the Pendulum’ around then – I wonder if there was a connection? Hugs, Jane; it will be a long bright summer!

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    1. I am chuckling Fred. I had a lovely furry soul share our lives once, called Toby. His tail would create far reaching mud arcs up the walls. 🙂 I thought of you yesterday as I went searching for an old picture frame to use as a frame for rug making. My architectural salvage buddy at the top of the street sent me down to a wonderful place and I met Mike. And yes, I found a perfect frame. I may blog about that. Spring filled hugs for you, as our new buds appear. xXx

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  3. Oh my gosh, I’m right there with you on those sleepless nights, then asking for some guidance and receiving it from loved ones gone, but not really gone. LOVE the idea of your dog walking and weaving. PERFECT. xo

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  4. Those sleepless nights full of worry are such a pain! I am glad you found comfort xx
    Two new projects! Wow! Best of luck with the dog-walking business – I am sure you’ll find lots of takers for that. Have fun with the rug-making too! xx<3<3xx

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    1. Hello lovely Clare, I had to turn and face what was distressing me, that was the tough bit. As soon as I was able to do that, I could start to release the trapped feelings and create some space. The dog walking and rug weaving will blend in with my therapy work, I am hoping. It all feels connected. I hope you are having a good Easter my lovely friend. Sending you and yours much love and hugs. xXx ❤ xXx ❤

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  5. Watch out Cesar Millan!
    A new light in the ‘Dog Whispering world’ comes into being.
    This is wonderful, inspirational guidance from your spirit helpers Jane, it can only create a ‘good’ and positive outcome for all concerned. Especially the four legged souls that find their way into your loving, caring hands.
    You know how my choccie lab ‘Denver’ has brought me out of the shadows on more than one occasion over the years.
    Enjoy and embrace the joy and laughter this unconditional love shall bring to you..
    x

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    1. Your boy is very special indeed. Thank you Malc. I was coming out of the house yesterday and a beautiful Rotweiller was making hi way down the path with his Mum. I put my basket down and held my arms wide, as all I could see was this bright pink light shining out from him. He and I chatted and I storked his beautiful head. I looked up at his Mum and her eyes were full of tears. I asked if she was OK. ‘Everyone sees his size and nothing else. They think he’s aggressive and he’s just love. Pure love.’ I agreed with her and hugged her lovely boy. Hugs for you Malc. xXx ❤

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  6. Jane – I think you are on to something. Funny how we plan, yet the universe gives us answers that clarify our direction, and yes, you need animal spirits around you, their instinctive knowing brings you joy. Have a wonderful ‘Oester’ 😊❤️

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    1. It’s a joy to go to all my little storage containers Ian and re-discover the trimmings, ribbons and snippets I have tucked away over the years (and carried from home to home across continents). Now I know why, because I can weave them in creations and they have new life. Hugs for you. xXx

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  7. Congrats on being such a get-up-and-move kind of person when your heart is in need. You take an interesting in other people, pets and activities. Congrats on your dog-walking initiative.

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  8. What a lovely post, and so inspiring to see how you went from feeling down to discovering so much new joy in your life. I can’t wait to see one of your new rug creations. I really like the idea of making things out of recycled or found stuff.

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    1. Thank you Deborah. It was the picture of your creative room that set me off re-arranging my front room to harbour a creative space. Thank you ❤ I am off today to visit a creative group that meet every Thursday morning in the art gallery. There's something about being together in creativity. Hugs for you. xXx

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    1. Hello Jane, it’s lovely to hear from you. I remember, years ago now, listening to Tom Selleck talk about serendipity. I am sitting here watching the little sparrows having a bath in a puddle that has melted in the early morning sun. Soft hugs for you. Xxx

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  9. I’m sorry you were having such a difficult night Jane but you certainly attracted the right company didn’t you. It’s good things have now started to turn around and work so well for you.With luck the dog walking will take off and give your wellies all the exercise they need.
    Have a Wonderful Easter, hopefully free of snow.
    xxx Gigantic Hugs across the water xxx

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    1. Thank you my lovely, I feel the dog walking and creativity will weave in naturally with my therapy work. I know you struggle to sleep. In the dark of the night sometimes, sparks can appear. Wrapping you and your loved ones in love. Have a lovely Easter break and there are huge hugs flowing across The Dee for you. xXxxxx ❤ Xxxxx

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  10. As ever lovely Jane ,full of promise for new beginnings..you need to go back not only to dog walking..but what about dog sitting? We dog rescue dog owners need a break sometimes…I’ve three you could come and sit with and make your rugs,and they will make you smile too.

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    1. Thank you lovely Leny, what a special thought. I have my main therapy work and that is static now, which is why I felt that dog walking could weave in with that. There was also a loneliness with constantly being on the move and my creativity was ‘capsuled’ because of space in my car. This time feels expanding, without being nomadic. Wrapping you and your furry ones in much love. ❤ Xxxx

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  11. Really enjoyed this post Jane. Thank you! My word press accounts are all tangled apparently and it¹s not letting me comment right on the post. Blessings‹Maria

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