A pause button appeared…..

The heatwave in the north of the UK has been broken by storms and showers lately and thanks to a creative bit of building work on the flat roof, the sky garden does not drain naturally. A large puddle forms and I go out there and sweep the water towards the drainage hole on the side and this hopefully stops the whole thing from rotting.

I have got run down lately and my health has creaked. Feeling rough and trying to work, I watched the pool on the roof. The birds were having a great time coming to bathe and splash about and some of them just sat in the water, watching the world go by. I left them too it and didn’t rush to sweep the water away.

With work I found my elastic patience had less give and when I was reaching for words of comfort and support for others, I was struggling.

I went back to watching the birds.

It was time to pause, but as you know you can’t just stop, as even a pause has financial implications.

My heart brother called and I mentioned my craving for a pause. Without the need for explanation, he understood and offered a temporary role, where I could help him in his business, stay self employed, and have a much needed break from the work I do now. I can do this, run with the other strands of income I have and step back from the service.

So, like the birds, I am splashing about and letting a new daily round evolve. Flowing with my new projects and also, making time for creativity. My dip into experimenting with newspaper weaving was not a riotous success last weekend. I produced a basket that resembled something I had brought home from school and proudly presented to my Mum when I was little. ‘It’s lovely, Darling, thank you.’ she would have said. It sparked a new idea of weaving pieces with all sorts of yarn, so watch this space, as I may share the result of that exploring, but not the newspaper basket.

It’s a good time to pause, splash and feel into change.

56 Responses to “A pause button appeared…..”


  1. 1 da-AL September 26, 2018 at 5:14 am

    ‘heart brother’ — what a lovely way to phrase it 🙂

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  2. 3 Baydreamer August 30, 2018 at 2:54 pm

    A pause in our daily routines and a positive change is a good way to feel refreshed, Jane. I’m glad to hear you’re splashing into something different that will hopefully lift your spirits. Lovely post and wise words for us all. 💗

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  3. 5 Clare Pooley August 16, 2018 at 1:44 am

    I am so sorry you have had such a hard time, Jane! I have read all the comments and your answers, as well as the original post and I am sure you have been very unhappy. I do hope a little change of occupation has helped you regain a little of your balance. Constant worries about where the money is to come from to pay the bills cannot be helping you recover. What a dear thoughtful man your heart brother is!
    I am also sorry your father is gravely ill, my prayers are with you and your parents. xxxx

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  4. 8 Sue Dreamwalker August 14, 2018 at 8:19 pm

    They often say Jane, that a change is as good as a rest.. I hope your spirits and health renews into the vigour that enables you to continue clear headed in all you undertake..
    The heat as left many of us feeling like we want to press pause..
    And I have..
    Love and Hugs and continued Blessings your way ❤

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  5. 13 coastalmom August 14, 2018 at 2:03 pm

    I wanted to comment on this when I read it but have been getting ready for my next art show which I set up for today but wanted to stop by and say how much I love your writing!
    I love your term “heart brother!” I also love a good metaphor & this pause button you speak of is brilliant! If only we could recognize each one as they come & embrace them all! Today you have been my pause button & we both know that is a compliment! Thank you for that!

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    • 14 Jane Sturgeon August 15, 2018 at 10:25 am

      I love the feel of your art shows Di. I read something the other day about how we make our creativity and our passions into hobbies and then put ourselves through the ringer with what we do to make a living. I am striving to bring more creativity and balance into my days. It’s an interesting journey, because it sets you up for people to judge. As you say, I just let them and their opinions be and see where my sparks come in and then take them out for a spin. It’s not a definite plan yet by any means, but that doesn’t matter does it? We are exploring and learning and creating. Huge hugs for you and your kind thoughts. xXx

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      • 15 coastalmom August 22, 2018 at 9:47 am

        I had to come back to this place right here & tell you that I shared your “pause button” metaphor a few times last week. It is a brilliant way to give a compliment. You are a sweet pause button for me& I am glad we have met! I love your writing! I understand & love when I find someone in the writing world that I just GET as I do you!💕

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    • 17 Jane Sturgeon August 15, 2018 at 10:25 am

      I also wanted to reach out, because you have lost your Mum. ❤ for you Di, always. xX

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    • 18 Jane Sturgeon August 15, 2018 at 10:27 am

      I wanted to say ‘Good luck’ with your art show, Di and all your creativity and exploring. xXx ❤

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  6. 19 valeriedavies August 14, 2018 at 2:32 am

    Dearest Jane, I love to think of you sitting and watching the birds bathing and splashing in the puddle on your roof after their long hot dry ordeal -, even if it wasn’t good for the roof. Those sorts of moments of pleasure and being completely in the present are as refreshing as all the other methods of re-charging…
    So wonderful that the Universe created the possibilities for you to be able to step back and re-charge… and it’s so wonderful to know that we are being looked after and always are…
    Cherishing oneself matters more than cherishing others – Hillel – If not me- who??????
    Enjoy this time for yourself XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

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    • 20 Jane Sturgeon August 14, 2018 at 6:50 am

      I was just thinking about you Valerie and it’s lovely to here from you. I loaned Kitchen Table Wisdom to my Mum at the weekend. My Dad is facing grave health issues and she and I are cut from the same cloth, so I feel she will love it too. I thought of you as my mind started to skitter forwards first thing today, on all that needs doing in the next few weeks. I have three ‘making a living’ projects running now and quite a few lists. I thought of you and your forest birds and eased myself back into the moment. Huge hugs flowing to you with much love. xXx ❤ xXx

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  7. 21 roughwighting August 10, 2018 at 4:04 pm

    The pause that refreshes. That was an ad slogan way back when (and I forget what the product was) but it’s so true. We all need to learn to pause, splash around a bit, and find ourselves once more. Good for you, and good for your heart brother, helping you out. Hope you feel refreshed already!

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  8. 26 Eric Alagan August 9, 2018 at 3:24 am

    Jane dear,

    The more you give, the more you are drained. A step-back to recharge will help put that spring back into your feet, so to speak.

    Pause, yes, and return to what you love doing.

    BTW, those days you did not sweep away the water on the rooftop – imagine how many microscopic lives flourished and completed their cycles. You did good, I reckon.

    Hugz,
    Eric

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  9. 28 frederick anderson August 8, 2018 at 10:45 am

    I’m sure you’re right. I spent most of my working life in self-employment (I was once told roundly that no-one else would ever employ me) and heaven knows we all need a break in the end. We just have to ensure we don’t come out of it working even harder! I’m so sorry life is biting at you these days, and I hope – no, with your optimistic positive nature I know – you will soon feel better, Jane. Meantime, its good to imitate the birds now and then; very therapeutic. Just avoid being caught by your neighbours when you’re sitting in that pool… sincere hugs!

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    • 29 Jane Sturgeon August 8, 2018 at 10:56 am

      You are a lovely buddy Fred, thank you. I am weaving with my usual flexibility and keeping my options open. Looking at having several irons in the fire to spread the load. Many blessings around, so it’s onwards with humour at the absurdity of it all at times. It’s good to pause and review now and then isn’t it? Huge hugs flowing right back to you. Xxx

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  10. 30 Nancy August 7, 2018 at 10:46 am

    You write so beautifully. Wishing you rest… I know of the feeling you speak of. Feeling tired and run down even when you awake in the morning is not good.
    Wishing you well!

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  11. 32 Christy B August 6, 2018 at 6:27 pm

    Don’t overdo it… Take time to pause, refresh, renew ♥ Sending love for the new week!

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  12. 34 smzang August 4, 2018 at 1:52 pm

    Dear Jane,

    So many times you have refreshed me with your light, now I’m sending my best vibes to you. A pause from time to time is good for the soul. It resets the metabolism of body and mind (and soul). Sometimes the detours in life offer the best scenery. I know you will find beauty wherever you go because you carry it within you.

    Much love,
    Sarah

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    • 35 Jane Sturgeon August 4, 2018 at 2:59 pm

      Your touching comment and thoughts brought tears to my eyes, Sarah. I wholeheartedly agree with you that the most interesting adventures come from the unexpected detours. Was it John Lennon who said ‘Life happens while we are busy making other plans?’ Huge hugs flowing to you with much ❤ always xXx

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  13. 36 grandfathersky August 4, 2018 at 12:44 pm

    Hello Jane – I’ve been delinquent in my reading, as like you the summer even thought it fills us with prana, we can be overwhelmed, like batteries overheating on the charger. Certainly your work on the service is draining, has to be hard keeping souls afloat day after day! So good to see your furred friends pointing the way for you, and you’re being tuned in to them. We must make space for new light to enter into … enjoy the pause the universe is calling you into!

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    • 37 Jane Sturgeon August 4, 2018 at 2:57 pm

      It’s always lovely to hear from you, Pete. There is a peace living here by the water and it’s time to just be with that. The joys of earning a living whilst doing that are fun, as always! I am looking on this as an adventure and as you insightfully say, allowing the space to let new things say ‘Hello’. Many hugs flowing to you, with much ❤ xXx

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  14. 38 dgkaye August 4, 2018 at 12:52 am

    Ahh sweet Jane, we all need a pause from time to time. It’s gives us new breath and lets us regroup. I’m so glad you’re heart brother will keep you busy, diverting you from the other things you need a pause from. But I do hope you are well my friend?? ❤ Sending extra hugs for this mercury retrograde challenge! xoxoxo

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    • 39 Jane Sturgeon August 4, 2018 at 2:53 pm

      Hello my special unicorn buddy, thank you. I got a migraine (never had one before) and then a streaming cold. Not like me at all and my energy fell through the floor. Along with other life signs I paid attention. Mercury (bless it) has been causing wonderful techie issues too. Time to pause, re-vamp and get creative. I am venturing into a completely different kind of market to earn a living and finding my brain power, that I had years ago, is sparking again. Bless my heart brother for giving me some bread and butter work while I explore my options. It’s all good in the hood, as they say. I hope all is well with you my lovely and Gordon? Sending you both oodles of loves and many hugs ❤ always xXx

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      • 40 dgkaye August 6, 2018 at 2:28 pm

        Thanks for sharing with me and for sending the love Jane. I believe this retrograde is to purge and open up to new beginnings. It sounds like that’s exactly what you’re doing – shedding and rediscovering. I look forward to hearing how your new ideas flourish. ❤ And thanks for asking, we are doing fine here in hot, humid Canada, as I think you too are riding the 'heatwave'. I hope your cold is on its way to making its exit! ❤ xoxo Love and hugs back at you! ❤ ❤

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        • 41 Jane Sturgeon August 6, 2018 at 2:36 pm

          Yes, my lovely, it feels like a purge and opening up, at a very deep level. All sorts of things being tested. I am learning to observe and let thoughts and feelings flow through, like clouds across the sky. It’s cooler here today and I am sending you hugs on a cool breeze. ❤ always for you, ❤ Xxxx

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  15. 43 ianscyberspace August 2, 2018 at 1:45 am

    Wishing success as you venture into new pursuits Jane. We all experience downers and need something new to help us up again. 🙂

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  16. 45 kewsmith August 2, 2018 at 1:44 am

    I’ve missed you but sometimes a pause is what we need. Can’t wait to see the art. ❤️🌀

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  17. 47 Al August 1, 2018 at 10:16 pm

    Great that a new opportunity has emerged. Classic “when one door closes….” Best on the new endeavor and remember always…..”a clean bird is a happy bird.”

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  18. 49 davidprosser August 1, 2018 at 8:20 pm

    Please don’t spread yourself too thin. Give yourself pause to think about yourself and how to recharge those batteries. I”m thinking good thoughts of you.
    xxx Massive Hugs xxx

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  19. 51 Jane Stansfeld August 1, 2018 at 3:43 pm

    You always do a god job finding life analogies to things observed; this time is no exception with the reference to birds splashing around. I hope that your new enterprise helps boost your health and spirits. I didn’t mention creativity as this seems to be doing fine as evidenced by this piece! By the way standing water on rooves may be great for birds but is not good for long term roof integrity.

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  20. 53 1smiles August 1, 2018 at 2:22 pm

    Take good care of you. We love you and our world needs you. (No pressure, of course). 😊
    Much love to you,
    Jeannie

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  21. 55 David August 1, 2018 at 2:07 pm

    I continue to covet that view Jane! Sorry you have been feeling run down. Rest is good for us but often so difficult to achieve.

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